Hello, Keyboard…

… my old friend
I’ve come to type
on you again…

Well, hasn’t it been a while since I’ve frequented these parts?

Of course, there are rational explanations:

  • I’ve just completed my first full length musical release, Sparse (stay tuned, much more info in the coming weeks)
  • I completed the first 20,000 words of the new novel, but wanted to let it simmer for a while
  • Christmas, a trip back to the UK, and all that that entails

But we are far from rational creatures. And I know that:

  • I needed to take a break from words, after releasing two novels and three screenplays in 2010/11
  • I felt the music brewing for the whole of the year and, finally, in October could hold it back no longer
  • I was so sick of the information and objectionable US Presidential election that I just couldn’t put anything out

So I retreated for a while.

And I recommend seclusion for all that have the courage to try it.

That’s right, courage.

It’s hard to let yourself float. It really is.

A little over two years ago, I stopped wearing a watch. I don’t miss it. But it was an adjustment, given that I’d been conditioned by nearly two decades in the corporate machine. This latest sojourn was a little of that same self-adjustment.

And I feel better having done it.

Definitely.

So there I was, diving back into my own recharge mode, enjoying family, friends, the muse, and all of a sudden, got two approaches relating to jobs – big, good-paying jobs. My centre was tested, for sure; I didn’t take either job. I could have. Of course, I could have.

Anyone else’s normality would have seen them taking the job.

But I couldn’t become that shape again.

Those slumped shoulders, weighed down by seeing so, so much broken in the machine. Those concrete legs, holding every truth I wanted to speak, yet held back. That increasing lean to the right as I protected what I truly was inside.

I didn’t take the jobs.

I finished my record.

And I signed up to write an independent movie.

And I helped start a local independent bookstore.

And I started helping writers overcome their own blockages.

And I arranged to run the first of what will be a series of workshops.

And I acted in a national television commercial.

And I helped someone survive cancer.

And now I’m helping her complete a documentary about her journey.

[PLEASE donate at that link. $5, 10, 15, 20, 100, 1000 – we need to make this film a reality!]

It’s amazing how much can happen when I try to do nothing. Or, more accurately I think, it’s amazing what can happen when you open yourself to the energy and change you’re meant to be in this world.

Hopefully, it won’t be so long before we meet again.

Vince

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